Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Working Holiday


I’ve been here just over two week. Here is Banff, Alberta, Canada. I worked here last summer, and as touristy as this place is, when I hopped off the bus here two weeks ago it felt like coming home. Unlike last summer I already had friends here, people I knew, people who knew me. I love seeing new places and experiencing things for the first time but I’m slowly realizing that I love the feeling of knowing where I am and what I’m doing. Coming back to Banff was the perfect combination of new and old, I was comfortable enough to walk down the street as a local but I was simultaneously able to experience this place like it was brand new. Working here means meeting and befriending people from all over the world. I’m fairly certain that I served over 150 ice cream cones to people from at least 20 different countries today, all within the space of 2 hours (side note: I’ve come up with a hypothesis having to do with ice cream and world peace). Needless to say, the past two weeks have flown by… working 10 hour shifts without any days off, hiking, and sleeping as much as possible can do that to the time. There were definitely a few hard days at first. Instantaneously befriending 15+ people with whom you spend almost 100% of your time can be difficult. All this to say, I can’t help but be thankful for all the opportunities I’ve had and the plans I’m able to make. I’m hoping to find some good wifi tomorrow so I can buy my tickets for Uganda/Europe tomorrow. Yep. Ticket buying. It’s big. Anyway… this wasn’t meant to be a lame life update… so I’m gonna go now.


Thursday, May 2, 2013

A Collection of Quotes


There is something incredibly about finding out that you've shared a thought with another person. I've experienced this in moments shared with close friends when you can look at each other know that you're laughing at the same thing that nobody else gets. I've also experienced this in words beautifully written. Over the past year(ish) I've been collecting quotes. Some of these quotes stuck out to me because the author was able to write an exact thought I had... or at least the eloquent version of that thought. Other quotes are summarized versions of what a I've learned from a book or random blog. Anyway, I came across a quote today and thought, hey, I should add this to my list... and while I'm at it I should share some of these quotes with some friends. So here is a small collection of random and hopefully thought-provoking quotes that mean or have meant something to me.

"What we need is a relentless appetite for the divine. We need a holy ravenousness. Our craving souls can turn and become enthralled by a goodness that is found in the presence of an all-glorious God. There is only one infinite source of satisfaction that can satisfy our bottomless cravings... every finite pleasure and satisfaction is meant to point us toward the infinite pleasure and satisfaction of God. My admiration for a sunset, then, need not stop at that horizon, rather it can curve upward into praise and gratitude.... we need to taste daily, deeply and constantly of the goodness of God. So let us turn together, and feast rightly." - Jason Todd
“The Bible is basically a story about God. When we turn to the Bible as a self-help book, we end up bored or frustrated with what seems to be a rambling collection of stories. What if the Bible is more about God than it is about us? How thrilling to discover that every element of scripture—the reports of events, the verses of distilled wisdom, the lyrical prophecies—converge in one central saga of one worthy person.” - Steven C. Hawthorne
My argument against God was that the universe seemed so cruel and unjust. But how had I got this idea of just and unjust? A man does not call a line crooked unless he has some idea of a straight line. What was I comparing this universe with when I called it unjust?” - C.S. Lewis 

"No one wants to be the person who is made fun of for caring too much about something, who treats in earnest a situation that everyone else considers absurd. Even in personal relationships, feeling too heavily invested while simultaneously understanding that the other person couldn’t be more detached is one of the most profound feelings of embarrassment we can experience. Because it isn’t simply the embarrassment of making a mistake or a poor choice, it’s a shame over the kind of human being you are and how you see the world around you. To be shamed for your sincerity is to be reminded that you are dependent on something which is not dependent on you — that you are, once again, vulnerable."
- Chelsea Fagan
“Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.” - Marc Hack 
“
Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness.” - Janet Fitch
"Hiking - I don’t like either the word or the thing. People ought to saunter in the mountains - not hike! Do you know the origin of that word ‘saunter?’ It’s a beautiful word. Away back in the Middle Ages people used to go on pilgrimages to the Holy Land, and when people in the villages through which they passed asked where they were going, they would reply, “A la sainte terre,’ ‘To the Holy Land.’ And so they became known as sainte-terre-ers or saunterers. Now these mountains are our Holy Land, and we ought to saunter through them reverently, not ‘hike’ through them." - Unknown


"Do not ever, ever, ever think of asking people what you’re not already trying to do yourself. You can blog and preach and soapbox about whatever you want, but legit historical figures actually rolled up their sleeves and lived it out and let their life do the talking for them. It doesn’t matter how sloppy you pursue it: just do something. We don’t need another basement blogger or pretentious preacher. We need game-changers. Words about love sound pretty; actually loving people is messy. Be part of the mess."
 - J.S. Park 


"To all my nonbelieving, sort-of-believing, and used-to-be-believing friends; I am sorry that so often the biggest obstacle to God has been us, Christians. Christians who have had so much to say with our mouths and so much judgement to give, but so littel foregiveness to show. Christians carrying grudges on their backs, rather than the cross of salvation. I am sorry that so often we have forgotten the Christ of our Christianity... Forgive me, forgive us."-Shane Claiborne

"Any woman who shaves to please you and asks you not to shave to please her is a keeper, straight up. Marry her, have beard loving children, and make the world a better place." - The Love of Beard

"It’s a funny thing coming home. Nothing changes. Everything looks the same, feels the same, even smells the same. You realize what’s changed is you."- F. Scott Fitzgerald

"Ugly is irrelevant. It is an immeasurable insult to a woman, and then supposedly the worst crime you can commit as a woman. But ugly, as beautiful, is an illusion. A matter of taste, a whim, an eye, a beholder, an opinion, a spin, light crossing the frame, paint, projection. The moment. Context."
- Margaret Cho 

"You stand by the sea coast, you stand by the edge of the grand canyon, you stand with your eye to a telescope, you stand there and you find your soul drawn OUT of yourself and for a brief moment you are free from self-consciousness and self-absorption and it is the most fully satisfying deep wonderful moment"- John Piper









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Monday, April 29, 2013

Summer Thoughts


I want inspiration to strike.

Why is it that so many things are easier to do as procrastination during the busiest time in the semester? Now it’s summer, wedding decorations and the occasional meet up with friends have been the only things occupying my time for the past week, and I’ve wasted so much time. Some people might call it relaxing, but honestly, it’s not. I’ve cooked, baked, and crafted (whatever that means) enough for domestic elyce to be content for at least another two months. Not to say that all that stuff is a complete waste, I mean, there’s definitely a time for cooking, baking and crafting (and I’ve definitely succeeded in helping fatten up a few people… myself included). I just know that as soon as I start working again I’ll realize exactly how I should have spent this time. Oh well, I guess for now I can be content with soaking up the sun and eating some more Mexican food.

… and maybe I’ll also do a couple of the things I know I should be doing but have completely avoided because I don’t even want to admit to myself that I should be doing them…

friends, tacos, the open road, and outdoor concerts :)

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

ending thoughts


The school year is coming to an end. I’m frantically trying to fit as much into my last 12 days as possible. No, studying does not come first, people do. I am at the stage in the school year where suddenly I have the courage to talk to those people I’ve never talked to before but always wanted to know. 12 days and counting and I just want to know everyone. I want to soak up their life experiences and carry their joy with me. 

There’s a feeling of pandemonium to these last days. 12 days to rule the world? Nope. Just twelve days to soak in as much as is physically possible of Trinity’s amazing community. Yeah, I’ve complained a bit this year, and no, I don’t want to come back next year, but somehow I’m still feeling like leaving here is probably going to be the saddest thing I’ve ever done. Of course, leaving to come here out of high school was also pretty hard… but it felt exciting. This just feels sad. I would like to think that the people I’ve bonded with here I will stay connected with for the rest of life, that they’ll be there when I get married, when I have my first kid, when something tragic happens or I have a midlife crisis. (It is possible considering we have created a pretty thorough plan for a utopia in which we all live on the same street and our kids go to school together). 

Maybe I will still know them, but most likely all they’ll be are hazy photos on a long-abandoned fb page or half-forgotten memories that take a very heavy dose of college nostalgia to bring up. They’ve changed how I think and brought(dragged?) me closer to God. I could never be thankful enough for the year or two I’ve had with these people. 

May I see them all again one day.

(phone pic taken as the sun was sneaking up on me)

(sorry for the terrible grammar and incomplete thoughts… this was written as a quick break from life)

Friday, March 29, 2013

9 Random Things I've Learned in the Past Two Years



9 Random Things I've (re)Learned in the Past Two Years:

1. People are always worth investing in. Whether you know you’ll have the rest of your life with them, three weeks, or only 45 minutes, they’re worth your attention, your time, and your heart.

2. On a sunny day, everything should be dropped for a good chat or game of Frisbee on the lawn.

3. You cannot ever judge the potential for friendship with someone until you’ve known them for at least two months.

4. Communication actually is key. A huge amount of conflict at trinity occurs simply because when people are upset they misinterpret.

5. Alone time should be cherished and sought after. When you live with 16 other girls, real (out-of-the-dorm) alone time becomes more valuable than gold.

6. Keep the fridge clean… seriously... when it's smell is starting to drive people away something is probably wrong.

7. No need to freak out if other people have homework and you don’t… you’re in humanities and you're only taking 12 credits. Enjoy that sunshine!

8. Do not take the same prof for multiple classes in the same semester. It’s confusing, boring, and just generally dreadful. 

9. Sometimes God will place you in a position you’re completely unqualified for, but then he’ll provide you with the support you need, and somehow he’ll use you even when you're unprepared.

Monday, March 25, 2013

A Weekend in the Life of a Trinity Student



I woke up this morning wanting to write. Yesterday morning I woke up wanting to go skinny dipping. Today’s yearning is both simpler and less unusual. So what the eeck, might as well write. This weekend was sublime. I started off the weekend with the usual Friday night trip to Vancouver with the crew. The sun was out, the air was brisk, and people just wanted to chat. It was beautiful. We got back to campus just in time to head to Adrenaline Rush. Adrenaline rush is a trinity tradition based on wearing as many glow sticks as possible and dancing like we’re even whiter than we are… but there are black lights so if you wear white you can feel like you’re not white. Surprisingly, this actually gave us an adrenaline rush, so I found myself sitting in my dorm at midnight with two other lovely ladies trying to think of something to do… as usual, this resulted in half an hour of texting followed by the (somewhat sad) realization that we don’t need anyone else to have a good time. An hour later I was sitting in a parking lot with said ladies eating timbits, sipping hot drinks, talking about boys and reminiscing about summer jobs, trips to France, and small town life. What a lovely night.

Saturday morning I woke up late with the sun in my eyes. That’s right, two sunny days in a row in the lower mainland! This is a true sign of spring. After lounging in bed for a couple hours my roommate and I rolled out of bed and headed to the play (Emma)… it was extra special because I won tickets to it so it was free (no, I am not cultured enough to pay to see a play based on a mediocre Jane Austen novel). Anyway, we left at the intermission. It was way too beautiful to spend the anymore time inside, no matter how good of a performance it was. My roommate and I wandered campus for a while and then sat down in the middle of an empty parking lot to talk and enjoy the sun. A few people wondered past and joined us, we listened to some music (modern technology is great) and we napped. When the parking lot finally got too uncomfortable we returned to our dorm for some much needed homework time. Was the day over? Nope. Just as we were about to go to bed, we decided instead to bundle up and walk to the overpass. There we sat, watching trucks zoom past underneath us and singing at the top of our lungs. The day ended with hot chocolate and good conversation with one of the coolest people I’ve ever known.

Sunday. Where to start? Once again, I slept in… what can I say? It’s a bad habit that’s hard to break. Around 11:00 I woke up thinking it was a cloudy day. An hour later I skyped my sister, her fiancĂ©, my mom, and my dad… in the hallway… once you learn to ignore the weird looks from people walking past it’s a great spot! The rest of the afternoon was pretty average… and by that, I just mean that I can’t remember what happened for the life of me (that probably means the afternoon consisted of watching people in my dorm play Tetris, attempt to use the microwave, and sing). In the evening, Allison wandered into my room and we had a pretty intense rap battle about Prince Harry. That’s right, we can both rap, and we’re both super talented. We eventually decided that for the sake of humankind we should hide our talents. This resulted in us leaving the safe confines of our dorm to go on a walk, but it was cold, so we visited Allison’s sister who requested that we go scavenging for some daffodil bulbs that she could plant in her apartment. On the way, we ran into a friend who had just thrown her keys on the roof of one of the buildings. We used our joint knowledge to help her get onto the roof and then watched as she crept along the entire length of the building while trying to look as creepy as possible. The evening, and the weekend, ended with some craft time (aka Allison making a chain of paper airplanes), tetris, and a loud rendition of Christmas Unicorn.

What a great weekend.